Hearts Blood

1)To follow the affect back towards the source, is to follow that which we are all caught in sharing, that which we feel we must get to, even if it costs us everything. It is a complex journey.

2)It might be made by a lover of the affect. The man who will loose everything he calls his own in finding the affect. He man of affection, without any apparent real feelings of his own. , and yet the man adept at reflecting the feelings of lovers. He looks, knowing where he will go, and yet does not know the outcome of the journey.

3)In this looking he cannot affords to take side trips or look askance and anyone or anything. Ay point he looks beyond such a quest is likely to reintroduce a self via perception.

4)He is therefore looked into the journey up the river-  the journey which has at it end point love or death.

5)That is at the end of such a journey is an unspoken moment where his ability to hold down his own identity through his own body is simply lost. To be himself is therefore changed. What he is become dependent of his ability to be already reached beyond himself, already a part of a sharing beyond which cannot be restricted or looped into a single simple person. He will become the affects what he is enters into partnership which is fashioning an exchange is giving a partnership/

6)The challenge of the affect is therefore always this challenge to be others in another – to become other to you self.

7)But there is another man also on the same journey- the man of passion.

8)The man that will therefore at each and every opportunity seek to own the affect. What ever the affect does so can the passion, and in doing so it will assert its power.

9)The passion dog the footsteps of the quest or. At every point they watch at every point they think that they would be better or would do better if they were in that others shapes.

10)Instead then of asserting the shared and using it as the movement to unpack a being within, the passionate man dog and owns, ones and dogs: hat as your is also it – because it always is, and will always be able to produce a passion like a principle to assert its right. And yet in this chimerical questing after the quest the passionate man looses his own identity. He merges with life understood in its rudest and crudest sense. That with the ability of live to assert its own spin into creation: To feel as it perceives and perceives as it feels: Its right to be as itself and through itself.

11)The passionate man whisks off into the clothes of live: It appears as it.

12)Or better unable to understand the key to the affect - the moment of sharing the only way it can - by facsimileing this moment this shared is by injecting a whirl of life into itself/

13)It is at the moment life unpicks – it uses the unpicking of life which is always there always asserting in spaces other than the self, as its prop and power.

14)More than that in this assertion it deliberately confuse itself with the power and violence of the living.- and this for a double reasons.

15)In wearing the clothes of another- in being merely the personification of living force it shares the blame. To go mad or to loose oneself stops being ones own ‘fault’ if one can blame the powers of life of the outrage. On blames then life, and so escapes the censor or another.

16)Or to put this point slightly differently, the man of passion does not quite loose sight of what he is. He still fears others looking at him as f he had a self still to loose. H ants then to assure that these other see not himself- that he himself is genuinely ‘dead’ for them They must see then not himself, but rather what underpins all selves- that is the power and violence of a life.

17)What he want to share with others therefore- the only point of exchange open to him is the movement he lives at and through-  the pointer of life. Watt he appeals to and what he allows to be judged is what condemns us all.

18)However in making this move there is a far subtler internal violence happening to the man of passion. He wants to blame life. But the living is never even in its crudity so open for blame. It does not work quite that way. It wages an ever real war against the self. It really ill unpick all selves, including that one which aims to ape to.

19)The man of passion therefore ape life, but life notes the aping an seeks to exclude or out evolve or trap the passionate man within it.

20)Living as a pure point therefore cares not a jot for the affect. It want no exchange. It rather wants to endure that everything including its representation within and through another remains under its own power and dominance. It will therefore in the face of the man of passion starts to plot how it will assert its rights beyond and through the copy of it that man wants to effect.

21)To ape life in passion is therefore a dangerous game. One can no more claim it for oneself and as ones special ally, that one can restrict or define the affect.

22)The power man of passion is thereby betrayed by both. The only problem is how deep is each betrayal?