The traps of time- a Deleuzian Variation:
1)what is it to wait? How can wait and stay themselves within the awaiting. One writing in a state of lime. One appears therefore to be a sturdy building, and appears to be reliably drinking. And yet the waiting corrodes cease or sense. The lime is quick lime.
2)As one waits upon a future, one jumps into different times, different versions of oneself.
3)One becomes then a pointless traveller, unable to sit still. One goes on little aborted journeys, but all those journeys merely show one other little vignettes of awaiting. Awaiting is communal – one await for the thunder crack of time to resound. One awaiting resolution.
4)In the light of that waiting one cannot hold down what one is. on the contrary one becomes the criminal. One feels oneself as pickpocket and traitor or even murderer.
5)These feel is reflect of course the passions the which are ever real, and which are inhabiting he awaiting, which are natural to it.
6) I Await as a surprise to he world: A little jack in the box, that is hooking up its time and forcing them elsewhere.
7) To await is in a sense therefore o demand a time for ones own as ones preserve. One waits in a world that must as one waits be doing other things. If it was not –if one was not a toad hidden under a rock, one would not of course be waiting. The world carries on, we wait.
8) But his that waiting, as one awaits, then ones own pitch of memory is being constantly corroded into time. That is one is running across what that stock holds, and whizzing it around, asking whether the time I now, the time is right the time is good for action.
9)One is therefore on one guard in the world, but running into memories, and seeing their reflection is the running stream, the steady pub, of the lime houses.
10) To Wait is therefore to open a mind to the ghosts of memory that leap as an unholy hunt across a world in waiting one looks to others to come. One suspect others.
11)Waiting becomes drawn out – one need not really be waiting for anyone. All that is happening is that the world has slipped into a ghost filled echo of time: it is crammed full of shifting patterns and shifting images of people.
12)Ones own integrity is therefore lost, as is the simple nature of one memory. One is rather caught up on points of time which implode in parts of the present, and make one look to them and wonder, as one wait is what will happen.
13)One becomes then at once a forger of ones own memory, which is to be rewritten, but also a murder of actuality. The world flows on, but as one awaits one hope, one aims in ones action to rupture that carry one. One never simply lives or simply awaits – one is rather awaits as a silent assassin to the world.
14)Only the lie of limehouse mortar can be held as real. That is as one waits, the lies and reality swap places
15)However within this mirage other points than simple waiting are clear. Somewhere in the dark limehouse sits the visionary. The Visionary will appear to be as waiting. Will appear to be the emblem of the wait. Supper at hand, and the fire light. And yet she knows tat things are not what they seem. She wait only because there is something wrong. Her natural life I therefore not to wait.
16)She will in effect inhabit the time of awaiting not as a figure drawn into her own memory, but rather as an affect, whose ability to be taking a pause, really does stop here being in the one time or even the one personality. She await by the fire, and the fir burs up her own thought and her own memories. She sees others lives in the fire. See or is already a part in others times
17) She hears then the voice of her father shouting, and hers it three times as if he were a spirit or a ghost. she hears the echoes of the stream and knows.
18) She is in a sense the bi-polar opposite to the awaiting.
19) The await is about breaking memory in the move towards a time. One waits and who one is opened in the wait and shifts.
20)The Visionary is already in the future or a least a future or a least already caught up in the affect of a change or a series of changes: Her task is then to move back from that spinning hub, back into normality, back into the world.
21) She intuits what is there, and does not know how to relate to it . the real trouble of the future feeling – is not that it is impossible, but rather that it is never clear those future tumbles into ones mind.
22) Is it ones own one is seeing, but then when? Is one seeing the mere fantasy in the future or the fantasy of the now as it is caught into a future? Or is it somehow else future, but them whose and when and how.
23)The trouble with the future is that it is unresolveble – one does not even know exactly where it is beckoning. One cannot therefore resolve the fast spin of the disk: one does not know where one is.
24)A Point lost in the lime house in the dark, troubled by images.
25) But as one of course beckons the watchers, who wait in the spun darkness of memory.
26)They look at the light, and listen wondering whether your visions are the answer to their past.
27)There memory comes then the houses or hoped for in the image of the vision. There minds open to being corroded into a future which include however vision one might be having.
28)The ache to tumble into your future, into the corrode of the affect and it inhabits and send spinning time.
29)The future is therefore the beckon o the waiting memory: that is to the memory that is committed to using the world to rework what it might be and what it is does (and so as it awaits changed world itself). The future is of course the immediate name for that process of restricting. That point memories are turned into scrap to be reused and resplit into a mind
30)The visionary of the affect is the demand that this restitching happens according to a principle that allows and layaways allows other within the min: That allows others in, and allows them to be special.
31)But then how can one enter the future? Clearly never directly. The future might have had the voice of its murdered father for when does the future not have a dead father and absence mother?) but these who would want to spin memory into t future cannot yet hear such a voice. They but be dragged to it through the realties or actions of the world.
32)At this point one is caught up in the enigma of the action. On the one hand where the action is pitched up in the flow of time is very clear.
33) An action is jammed in between other stable times. One can iv it a date and place therefore.
34) It belong to the flow.
35) And yet it is a deeper mystery about what and here that action actually is.
36) One knows something is, but what?
37) Or better, how can one find what is also hidden n this action? What secret it is covering? Or what is lying beneath?
38)It is only in knowing this secret that one can express in a distinct manner those unquiet whispering of the outside that the action itself includes.
39) That is in itself alone it is an empty cipher: The mechanics (and duty) of the outside (and nothing more than an outside).
40)To make an outside one had the drive into a mystery, and find a point that everyone can agree reveals what the action is.
41)To reach this point, one needs to be a man helping with the enquires. That is a person who might be guilty or might merely be a witness. One who is caught up in the affair in some sense.
42)But as the action I the event it is not clear exactly here this catch up lies. Am I caught in it or it in me> If Riderhood guilty or innocent a criminal or merely an informer?
43)The point for the action is ht it does not matter. His role is rather to frame a problem He carries you to the action. He is its host insofar as he ensures that you see it in the here and how.
44)He is a man of suspicion, in that he allows one to know that something has happened. He is it manager (and yet not the one to delve into the mystery itself)
45)To drive into the mystery one needs a different figure entirely, one needs the inspector. The Inspectors role is to act is little burst or spasms, and produce though his actions the nature of what has happened.
46)Without then his actions his reframing of a problem or action as a thing to be solved, the entire picture would be unresolved.
47) He works by taking the action that has already been (in a sense) and yet which one does no know what it is, and pulling out content from it. His actions in therefore to make another action act as it ought to be.
48)He faces to render others clear and distinct, and so tell the world of their action.
49)He works therefore on a far smaller canvass that the mans of suspicion: He takes the mess of what is there and acts to resolve what action loops that is, together to form a whole.
50)But what is the action itself? in a sense it is nothing – a mere corpse with truth or life wrung out of it.
51) The action is nothing in itself.
52) And yet of course it is everything in that it resolves the waiting.
53)Thos who wait must now pull together there memories according to ho they feel they must relate to what is now known.
54) The actions power is this requirement that others take it up, and built it into what they are.
55)It acts therefore to force resolutions: Be they the end to a chance for a reward, or new paper work, or tried journey home (where it is not clear who is doing what)
56)Or else another hidden action,, as the man who was caught in the beckon of the future, realises that action as a way to look towards tee future.
57)The amino therefore allows the memory into the future, and yet of course it leaves exactly how they entered blank and empty. All that can be known is that the memory and the visionary are someone caught up, and yet it would take the visionary herself to tell up in what possible ways.
58)And she is absent.
59)And actions power Is therefore in ending or forcing resolution upon the action witnesses – a response that then opens but their own differences, and forces them into being either roles they are (or have been), or opens them into roles to come.